Source of Poison

whenever i think of it
the memory spreads like poison
my heart cries my eyes bleed red
some part of me goes dead.

i think of it
i begin to cry
i beg God
i wish i could fly.

i picture the thought
wish something untrue
it hurts deep within
when i see her with you.

i think again
remember the details
feels so nice
to touch where it pains.

memories haunt me
they tell me go die
it hurts every moment
when i see boredom vent.

poor child
you weren't born for this world
your body is naked and bare
i'll cover you so that they don't stare.

it must have hurt you
to hear those words
you weren't built for this
god made you like a bird.

you are light in your flight
with a heavy heart
and every ounce of might
my little bird impaired; my plight.

your heart is nimble
its very pure
won't see you tortured
it was just a lusty lure.

come undone
these memories fade
then again
it begins to pain.

oh my sweet child
whence you come
god have mercy be a little mild
i don't have the power to save my child.

whenever i think of it
the memory spreads like poison
my heart cries my eyes bleed red
some part of me goes dead.

Ek Awara Prem Kahani

[1] usne kaha, tu kaun hai?

maine kaha, awargi ,

ye dil ye pagal dil mera,

karta rahe awargi,

ye dil ye pagal dil mera,

karta rahe awargi ...

[2] iss dil ko awara banaya usne,

iss dil ko awara banaya usne,

ab dekho meri pehchaan badli,

jab banni awargi, deewangi ...

[3] ye dil ye pagal dil mera,

kyon bhuj gayi awargi,

hum log toh ukhta gaye,

apni sunna awargi ...

[4] har ashru ki yahi kahani,

ashru-dhara main nikli dillagi,

prem ki aag main jal gayi,

har ashiq ki prem kahani ...

(PARA 1 & 3 Ghulam Ali)

(PARA 2 & 4 Jyotika Jain)

Graveyard Night

Its dark, it pitch black
Its cold, its lonely
Its night, the world is asleep
I am awake wide awake
Drawing the energy,
The wisdom and the peace night brings.

The stars play peek-a-boo
They torment my heart
They delay their show
Make me want the undesired
The clouds spread across the moon
It carries it in its womb
With a little show
It covers the bulge
It covers the child's nudity
It protects it from the gaze of others.

The eerie silence could kill anyone
This is my home
I live with hundred others
They are too invisible to the eyes of the world
They hang in air
Their presence lingers with those who had loved
This is my living place
Etched upon the tombstone is my name
People see and comment, young was her age
I died in a battle, young and brave
I live in a silent grave
I haunt the living
'cause I am already dead

World Peace Day

The shadow walks around carelessly and carefree
The same runs through all of us
But we better not rejoice
For it is in crossing this barricade
That we lose our life.

Our hearts yearn to meet our brother
In misery and suffering sitting across
The rampart
Wounded and bleeding
Dying silently
While we watch
With our bayonets at guard
To tear apart any form of life
That moves across the stockade
Because the orders have been given to us
To curb the instincts of human life in us.

Its a vision
A vision which we all saw
Of glistening water running wild
The lush green moss pleasant and tempting
With olive leaves strewn around
Children no matter how different
Running across the hedge
Laughing with a cheerful banter
We curse and envy this vision
Because it can't be true
WE are so used to be living behind walls
But they have broken all boundaries so far
Those boundaries created as they grow apart
On the basis taught them from start.

Where will this heaven be seen
Where we can walk across the
Other side of the stream
Without fearing the loss of our life
Without curbing the human in us
Without stopping the germination of the seed of love
Without fearing that tomorrow we will be separated again
And we wont be able to meet again
While the spirits can soar high
Into heaven's sky
And meet their kith
And combine to form
A reservoir of power
Not the power of strength
But the power of love
We feel for each other
May this vision be true
And lead all creatures to eternity

Moon-Night

Vincet Van Gogh's ever so famous painting.

I walk around the lonely road
The empty eyes stare at me
It doesn't scare me or un-nerve me
Because I know not where I go
He beckons me and I move on
Must I stop here a while and sing.

I stand upon the ledge
And stare at the velvety sky above
Studded with swarovski crystals
There is a kohinoor mong them
The hope diamond
The love of one's life
The moonlight shines into my eyes.

Its chilly nature is soothing
Its comforting just like a careless whisper
It plays along with the clouds
And puts what's out
The wind passes through my flannel shirt
Passes on right through me
And reminds me of the warmth
Of the fire at my mommy's.

Hope I could linger here
And touch nature's virginity
Lose my mind in hopeless desires
Just how happy it may seem
The night crawls on by
Burdening upon my shoulder
Beckons me to move on
Time is getting older
I have to move on
I cant shirk my resposibilities
I have to go where I belong.

There are too many things I shoulder
There are too many things at hand
There are too many people and their desires
That I have to fulfill but still take my stand.

I can't stop here and wait
I can't live here for the time
There those who need me
And there are those who I can't
I can't stand here and wait
I can't be what I see.

I walk down the lonely road
The empty eyes stare at me
It doesn't scare me or unnerve me
Because I know not where I go
He beckons me and I move on
Must I stop here a while and sing
Because the night reminds me, there is no such thing.

It's All About You

So, we start here again
A place from where we begin
Words flow out
And then I shout
Oh no, not now

I burry my head
And I try to read
Thoughts enter my head
And blurr what I read
Then I take a pen
Jot what I thought
And I realise this is not what I need
I need to read
But then your face
Is right next door
Your smiling face
Laughing eyes
I have to make a sacrifice

I become quiet
I sit and think
I know its wrong
The world blinks

So I try again
And start from where I began
I try to push you out
I fail, so I shout
Words dont come out
Thoughts flow throughout
I calm myself
And I think again
So I open myeyes
And I dont want to think about you
But when I look up all I see is you
I read these lines
I feels its incomplete
I think of you
Oh what am I without you

I know its wrong
I know its a sin
But what now
Where do I begin

Kill those thoughts
and put work forth
Read ahead
make things worth

As I raise my head
And I see what lies ahead
I know its true
Its all about you

I know its wrong
I know its not right
But then how can I
Forget that night

I look at the lines
That I wrote in the past
And everyone notices it too
Its all about you

then I think again
I cry for you
I think of you
Its all about you

Then I put my head down
World looks upon with a frown
I'll be dead, you know it too
If I make this all about you

When Our Eyes Were Closed

Close your eyes,
And feel the breeze,
Feel the warmth,
And touch what I feel.

Dive in the joy,
Live for this life,
Share what you have,
Share my life.

Dream for this life,
Secure our future,
Pray for us,
Hope we’ll be there together.

I’ll lead you to the light,
I’ll be there by your side,
Hold me tight,
I won’t leave your side.

I’ll show you what you want,
I’ll give you what you need,
Be there by my side,
And we will lead.

Let me play with your hair,
Let me caress your eyes,
Let me fight all these lies,
Let me muffle the cries.

Make your decision,
I’ll stand by it bold,
I can feel everything,
I can feel you loosen your hold.

You can let go off me,
You can burry me as a past,
I won’t resurface,
I’ll hold onto that fast.

You may run,
You may hide,
But remember one thing,
I’ll be there by your side.


When you decide to turn around,
And hear every passing sound,
You may kiss the earth,
But you’ll miss my warmth.

I’ll be there,
I’ll stand by you,
It’s my word,
I won’t forget you.

You will come back to me,
I know that for sure,
You may cry in front of me,
I will love you even more.

I’ll make you shut your eyes,
Turn into reality all your desires,
Hold you tight,
And be engulfed by love’s might.

And then slowly,
I’ll ask you to open your eyes,
I know what you will see,
There would be a person standing besides me.